Our precious daughter's first birthday party.
Post to be edited soon!
Friday, February 19, 2016
Monday, August 17, 2015
Elaine Chaeryn
She's asleep, which sometimes means I can have the time for myself.
It is a weird feeling, an extension of yourself is lying in front of you and by the time she wakes up she'll frantically look for you and cry and you have to pick her up or shove your breast in her mouth or else she'll panic and scream her tiny lungs out. That can be a beautiful sound sometimes.
So much for an introduction for motherhood. But yeah, ALL THE CLICHÉS ARE TRUE! Life changed by a hundred eighty degrees.
The love at first sight: Instantly! Of course, she was loved ever since we knew her existence but it's a whole different feeling when I actually pushed her out (the whole ordeal lasted for a few hours only, thankfully), crying out loud and held her in my arms. Emotions just rushed in, overflowing and never ends. I would literally take a bullet for her.
The sleepless night: Since day one. I can't remember the last time I had an uninterrupted sleep. Both of us sleep and slept well, but that constant urge to check on her is truly natural.(We're not co-sleeping) It's worrisome when she doesn't flinch an inch. And it's also worrisome when she's flinches too much.
The interrupted schedule: I used to have a relaxed time management, but when she's around, she's the schedule. And she doesn't tolerate. I had to stop anything I was doing whenever she demands attention.
The "All about her": Yep. It's all about her. Shopping is about her. Going out is about her. Decision to attend events are all about her. Phone gallery is all about her. Meeting people and all they ask is about her.
The messy mom: I still have my decent haircut, short, to cope with the excessive hair loss. I still have my eyebrows trimmed, once in a while. I still put on lipstick upon attending important events. I still wear my acceptable outfits. BUT, I did attend a wedding with her explosive poop splat on half my dress, which was dark, thankfully. Done shopping with her milk barf all over my shirt. Carried an extra bag for the diapers supply and change, and soon adding another bag for her feeding supply. My hair is always not right, with her pulling it. The car is no longer sweet smelling and trash-free.
To you effortlessly elegant mothers out there, you have my utmost respect.
The missing her: I haven't been away from her for more than 12hours yet, and I don't know how if I were to leave her overnight or more. Not that I have the reason to, anyway. Sometimes I miss her while I was outside doing laundry, which is crazy. Long distance working mothers are the strongest, truly I don't know how they do it.
The shopping splurge: My interest in shopping for myself has lessen drastically, however I have no control over shopping for her. Living in a faraway land from malls are not helping either since shopping can be done while you're nursing your baby. Really at the tip of your fingers. Just browsing initially, but in the end you're checking tracking numbers for your parcel. Ouch. Babies' stuffs are just.the.cutest.thing.EVER! And they doesn't come cheap. Double ouch.
The milestone: I have a lousy chart on tracking her milestones, but even the smallest accomplishment makes my day. Her first laugh, her first roll over, her first face recognition, her first semi-solid feeding, everything is just precious. I'm a proud momma.
The growing too fast: Speaking of milestone, she's 6 months old today. Feels like it was yesterday we found out we were expecting. I secretly hope she'll stay the way she is because I'm terrified, thinking how I have to deal when she turns a teenager with all that scary thing called emotion and hormone spurts.
Some say that quitting my job, leaving the corporate world and being a few thousand poorer are sacrifices stay-at-home mothers had to do, but I say, it is the sweetest and most rewarding privilege one could have. To watch and raise your child. I couldn't be happier I made this choice.
My precious. Happy 6th month. May your radiate and shine as your name Elaine Chaeryn suggests, a shining light. Shining bright. I never knew I am capable of loving someone this much. Sometimes I forgot I have a husband. Eh, I kid I kid. :D
It is a weird feeling, an extension of yourself is lying in front of you and by the time she wakes up she'll frantically look for you and cry and you have to pick her up or shove your breast in her mouth or else she'll panic and scream her tiny lungs out. That can be a beautiful sound sometimes.
So much for an introduction for motherhood. But yeah, ALL THE CLICHÉS ARE TRUE! Life changed by a hundred eighty degrees.
The love at first sight: Instantly! Of course, she was loved ever since we knew her existence but it's a whole different feeling when I actually pushed her out (the whole ordeal lasted for a few hours only, thankfully), crying out loud and held her in my arms. Emotions just rushed in, overflowing and never ends. I would literally take a bullet for her.
The sleepless night: Since day one. I can't remember the last time I had an uninterrupted sleep. Both of us sleep and slept well, but that constant urge to check on her is truly natural.(We're not co-sleeping) It's worrisome when she doesn't flinch an inch. And it's also worrisome when she's flinches too much.
The interrupted schedule: I used to have a relaxed time management, but when she's around, she's the schedule. And she doesn't tolerate. I had to stop anything I was doing whenever she demands attention.
The "All about her": Yep. It's all about her. Shopping is about her. Going out is about her. Decision to attend events are all about her. Phone gallery is all about her. Meeting people and all they ask is about her.
The messy mom: I still have my decent haircut, short, to cope with the excessive hair loss. I still have my eyebrows trimmed, once in a while. I still put on lipstick upon attending important events. I still wear my acceptable outfits. BUT, I did attend a wedding with her explosive poop splat on half my dress, which was dark, thankfully. Done shopping with her milk barf all over my shirt. Carried an extra bag for the diapers supply and change, and soon adding another bag for her feeding supply. My hair is always not right, with her pulling it. The car is no longer sweet smelling and trash-free.
To you effortlessly elegant mothers out there, you have my utmost respect.
The missing her: I haven't been away from her for more than 12hours yet, and I don't know how if I were to leave her overnight or more. Not that I have the reason to, anyway. Sometimes I miss her while I was outside doing laundry, which is crazy. Long distance working mothers are the strongest, truly I don't know how they do it.
The shopping splurge: My interest in shopping for myself has lessen drastically, however I have no control over shopping for her. Living in a faraway land from malls are not helping either since shopping can be done while you're nursing your baby. Really at the tip of your fingers. Just browsing initially, but in the end you're checking tracking numbers for your parcel. Ouch. Babies' stuffs are just.the.cutest.thing.EVER! And they doesn't come cheap. Double ouch.
The milestone: I have a lousy chart on tracking her milestones, but even the smallest accomplishment makes my day. Her first laugh, her first roll over, her first face recognition, her first semi-solid feeding, everything is just precious. I'm a proud momma.
The growing too fast: Speaking of milestone, she's 6 months old today. Feels like it was yesterday we found out we were expecting. I secretly hope she'll stay the way she is because I'm terrified, thinking how I have to deal when she turns a teenager with all that scary thing called emotion and hormone spurts.
Some say that quitting my job, leaving the corporate world and being a few thousand poorer are sacrifices stay-at-home mothers had to do, but I say, it is the sweetest and most rewarding privilege one could have. To watch and raise your child. I couldn't be happier I made this choice.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Hitched.
Well, June 2014 has passed. I often wondered how life would change after June 2014. Here I am at the end of September, and life has changed in a way I less expected.
How shall I start.
The wedding!
Which was almost four months ago.
The one purpose of wedding is for me and my then-fiance to be married legally. If that happened in the end of the day, I consider the event a success. I'm simple.
If you ask me to analyse it, I could prepare a post-mortem report on it. I have lots of "But that's not what I asked for/had in mind/planned" moment.
My two childhood besties who were supposed to serve as bridesmaid and matron of honour couldn't make it at the eleventh hour due to the passing of their grandmother, I cried.
The reception centerpiece made me grit my teeth.
The ceremony was delayed.
There was not enough seats.
The weather is too damn hot.
I could rant all day vocalizing my dissatisfaction. But would that change anything? Don't think so, especially now. :)
How shall I start.
The wedding!
Which was almost four months ago.
The one purpose of wedding is for me and my then-fiance to be married legally. If that happened in the end of the day, I consider the event a success. I'm simple.
If you ask me to analyse it, I could prepare a post-mortem report on it. I have lots of "But that's not what I asked for/had in mind/planned" moment.
My two childhood besties who were supposed to serve as bridesmaid and matron of honour couldn't make it at the eleventh hour due to the passing of their grandmother, I cried.
The reception centerpiece made me grit my teeth.
The ceremony was delayed.
There was not enough seats.
The weather is too damn hot.
I could rant all day vocalizing my dissatisfaction. But would that change anything? Don't think so, especially now. :)
One thing about traditional wedding which serves lunch (and it goes on) buffet is that there's no guidelines available on the net. It's difficult to expect the number of guests, and previous events wouldn't help either since the guests sets are totally different. The kitchen team was the most hardworking ever. I went to sleep with the home still alive and kicking with laughter and chatters from relatives doing the cooking, and I woke up to them still there cooking. I am forever indebted to them. Some even came a week in advance and few days after the wedding to help out in the kitchen. That is one thing that's unbeatable, I can feel the spirit of oneness and family throughout the whole process. I feel so much loved!
They did an amazing job providing the food in abundant, and we have several other caterers as well. Food department was not lacking and I want to give them all a HUGE hug! Lots of guests complimented on the food on how varied it is. I'm thrilled to know that.
I have seen BIG FAT Dusun weddings previously in my community, and I humbly conclude that ours was a big affair as well. The challenges multiplied with the increase number of guest. It wasn't easy for the whole team, but I am thankful that the Lord provided plentiful blessing and I couldn't ask for more. It was a beautiful day for us to celebrate.
Shall I go into details of each item? Nah, I'm too lazy. It has been said that a picture is worth a thousand words, so check out the wedding album in facebook https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10204218120874507&type=1&l=f3798417e0 with 365 photos. That tells a lot of stories, if you're imaginative enough. :)
But it's a sad thing that the hardworking people behind the scenes was not captured for memories. Personally for me, they've worked the hardest!
Wedding was over and we spent the next few days cleaning up, you're only king and queen for a day. :) Still a lot of fun, with relatives around. Then, the newlywed headed for their honeymoon in the island of gods, Bali. 'Twas fun and relaxing, no hassle and no schedule we have to stick on. Just go anywhere we feels like.
We had our second reception on the 28th July, much more intimate and scaled down celebration however still loaded with fun and laughter. (Insert picture here, once I found it)
Overall, weddings are just events, with long-winded detailed exciting process. But marriage is for life. We should invest more on the married life. I made a so-called drastic move about a month ago. I left my 9-5 job, which mum still frowns upon. How to survive with sole income, especially when our expenses are doubling up? I thought about that a lot, to the point where I sometimes regretted my move. I have a lot of solitary moment now, watching outside the window and wonder is this how future looks like. Economically, it wasn't a wise move. But on all other aspects, I'm feeling fine. Unlike previously, home for me and husband now refers to the same place. We eat from the same kitchen and falls asleep on the same bed. It makes a lot of difference though sometimes unseen. I'm feeling at peace, even though the only thing that excites me now is clinic trips. Sunset is always gorgeous from my favorite sitting spot, anyway, which is awesome!
I shall conclude that Jehovah Jireh, have faith!
Sincerely,
A wife.
An expectant, with a bun in the oven.
They did an amazing job providing the food in abundant, and we have several other caterers as well. Food department was not lacking and I want to give them all a HUGE hug! Lots of guests complimented on the food on how varied it is. I'm thrilled to know that.
I have seen BIG FAT Dusun weddings previously in my community, and I humbly conclude that ours was a big affair as well. The challenges multiplied with the increase number of guest. It wasn't easy for the whole team, but I am thankful that the Lord provided plentiful blessing and I couldn't ask for more. It was a beautiful day for us to celebrate.
Shall I go into details of each item? Nah, I'm too lazy. It has been said that a picture is worth a thousand words, so check out the wedding album in facebook https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10204218120874507&type=1&l=f3798417e0 with 365 photos. That tells a lot of stories, if you're imaginative enough. :)
But it's a sad thing that the hardworking people behind the scenes was not captured for memories. Personally for me, they've worked the hardest!
Wedding was over and we spent the next few days cleaning up, you're only king and queen for a day. :) Still a lot of fun, with relatives around. Then, the newlywed headed for their honeymoon in the island of gods, Bali. 'Twas fun and relaxing, no hassle and no schedule we have to stick on. Just go anywhere we feels like.
We had our second reception on the 28th July, much more intimate and scaled down celebration however still loaded with fun and laughter. (Insert picture here, once I found it)
Overall, weddings are just events, with long-winded detailed exciting process. But marriage is for life. We should invest more on the married life. I made a so-called drastic move about a month ago. I left my 9-5 job, which mum still frowns upon. How to survive with sole income, especially when our expenses are doubling up? I thought about that a lot, to the point where I sometimes regretted my move. I have a lot of solitary moment now, watching outside the window and wonder is this how future looks like. Economically, it wasn't a wise move. But on all other aspects, I'm feeling fine. Unlike previously, home for me and husband now refers to the same place. We eat from the same kitchen and falls asleep on the same bed. It makes a lot of difference though sometimes unseen. I'm feeling at peace, even though the only thing that excites me now is clinic trips. Sunset is always gorgeous from my favorite sitting spot, anyway, which is awesome!
I shall conclude that Jehovah Jireh, have faith!
Sincerely,
A wife.
An expectant, with a bun in the oven.
Friday, December 13, 2013
Milestones
Hola.
Another birthday has passed. This birthday (and this month) marks several important milestone for me. We finally moved in to a new square, just a few steps away from the place we used to stay, literally. That move means so much to us. To mum, particularly. That was her postponed dream. Almost had it, lost it, slowly gaining it back and now she's there.
Celebrated my birthday there. The baby daughter in the family is another year closer to the BIG THREE-O. Goodness! Mum even said she had three kids when she was my age. Pffft.
It's my last birthday being unmarried, God willing. That probably is hitting me hard as well. Six months plus plus being engaged and less than six month to go for the wedding. Wow. Seriously I don't know what to feel. Started the DIYs, which revealed the darling's many hidden talent. (=.=) He is much better than me in all domestic skills known to men. Okay, maybe not all but still.
By the way, 2013 had been pretty amazing. I believe 2014 has so much to offer, starting with cruising the SUPERSTAR AQUARIUS!!! Then, big bro's wedding. Then, the 3rd Sabah Oil & Gas Conference & Exhibition. Then, the wedding. Organizing Sabah's significant profitable oil and gas event and your once-in-a-lifetime wedding in two weeks apart MAY be suicidal. We'll see how the body, brain and soul can sustain its sanity. Bear with me darling dear, in those period some rainy days and storms should be expected. I trust and I know you'll be there.
Who you are in high school is not who you will be in college and who you are in college is not who you will be when you are 30.
When you accept that you are malleable and ever-changing, you will be less resistant to new ways of thinking and being and you will grow into the beautiful person you are meant to become.
Resist the urge to remain stagnant. There are always things to learn about the world and yourself. Let yourself learn them.
Anxious on how future looks like. Especially after June 2014. Praying for the best.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Moving On
END OF JUNE!!! Being busy is a good thing in terms of doing business of sort.
I miss writing and typing nonsense.
I had been constantly having my brain squeezed, processing things I find hard to understand. But if you don't challenge yourself you won't move anywhere. Career-wise, it's important to move forward.
Obviously.
I'm going to hit my 1-year milestone with this current career and then will start to look elsewhere.
Here's what I did on April, to fund my excessive monthly expenditure.
It did not turn out exactly like what I have in mind (I visited the 1st one last year so I expected more on the 2nd), but needless to say, the lessons are there. I had to digest 2-days worth of conference papers on OnG and though some were too technical for me to understand, I can conclude that OnG IS THE industry that offers lucrative opportunities.
Right after career project was wrapped up, I took my much needed leave and went on some trip with them buddies. One thing I am very clear about after this trip was that I am not born to do climbing. I effing dislike stairs, either going up or going down. Thanks goodness dearest darling was with me, if he's not there I doubt that I will make it. I was forced to move forward even at times I feel like sleeping on those mountainous terrain. I gave up at some points and even said I'm okay with not reaching the peak. But after continuous push, I managed. The view was really worth the exhaustion. A view like none other. Feeling alto-phobic a bit though. Fun but probably once is enough for me. :)
I miss writing and typing nonsense.
I had been constantly having my brain squeezed, processing things I find hard to understand. But if you don't challenge yourself you won't move anywhere. Career-wise, it's important to move forward.
Obviously.
I'm going to hit my 1-year milestone with this current career and then will start to look elsewhere.
Here's what I did on April, to fund my excessive monthly expenditure.
It did not turn out exactly like what I have in mind (I visited the 1st one last year so I expected more on the 2nd), but needless to say, the lessons are there. I had to digest 2-days worth of conference papers on OnG and though some were too technical for me to understand, I can conclude that OnG IS THE industry that offers lucrative opportunities.
Right after career project was wrapped up, I took my much needed leave and went on some trip with them buddies. One thing I am very clear about after this trip was that I am not born to do climbing. I effing dislike stairs, either going up or going down. Thanks goodness dearest darling was with me, if he's not there I doubt that I will make it. I was forced to move forward even at times I feel like sleeping on those mountainous terrain. I gave up at some points and even said I'm okay with not reaching the peak. But after continuous push, I managed. The view was really worth the exhaustion. A view like none other. Feeling alto-phobic a bit though. Fun but probably once is enough for me. :)
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| THE obligatory shot. |
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| I still can't believe I actually climbed these rocks! |
Thennnn, I had my e-day.
That pretty much sums up what I had accomplished in the first half of 2013. I changed my perspectives in lots of way. I changed my priorities. In a good way, I hope.
What are my expectations for the 2nd half of 2013?
I am quite disappointed that I have no travel plans this year. Financing a wedding if not easy, kan darling? :) However, I am super excited with the planning process, well, I don't know that by frequently clicking wedding blogs can be counted as excited though. So, July onward I will be checking out wedding dresses, theme, cakes, decos, wedding packages and the sort. Wow, all these are getting real.
I wrapped up my June with the girls (sans Pluto)
I am glad that even though our respective lives are on the fast lane now, some things will never change. Like these girls. We've been eating misup here since we were 10?..And as always, such simple moments are the best! One of us is leaving to KL for a few years. We'll miss uuuuuuu..
Moving on to July!!!
Friday, June 14, 2013
Engaged!
I'm engaged to this amazing man on the 9th of June.
Finally, some may say. Thankfully, I must say. :)
Meet my handsome fiance.
I promise to love you better.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
TwentyTwelve
What a dead blog. Should not be called a blog at all.
Blame the eight to five (thirty) routine. It's killing my creativity, if there's any.
I turned twenty five on the seventh day of the month. Yeayyy! Had a humble yet beautiful celebration. Thanks to my awesome darling, you are the best. Sincerely. Just. The. Sweetest. Guy. EVER!! So damn blessed to be your girlfriend. xoxoxo
Thanks to family as well. Another well-planned surprise. Merry and kanyang.
I am surrounded with so many beautiful people. Thanks dear friends for all the well-wishes as well. If it wasn't for facebook, I doubt most of them remembered my birthday. Hihi..thanks anyway.
I am too lazy to list down 25 blessings for this year. But I will summarize it nonetheless.
Nothing major happened. Attended a course for the unemployed graduates for a few months and met some crazeh buddies. Placed at this company for the industrial attachment, and now I am employed here.
In between, I spend glorious moments with f & f doing things that I enjoyed so much.
Like, island getaway.
Touring Shenzhen--Guangzhou
Significant weddings of my lovelies.
And parties, short trips, movie dates, dinner outings, sleepover, fun photoshoot, et cetera. Life's so veeeery good.
I am glad that this Christmas, I am employed. Not exactly the career path I had in mind, but whatever, still have paychecks. As long as I can pay my bills, I'll be good, for now. But as for the future plans, I need another career. >.<
December heat is burning me. 2012 had been really good to me. In few days it will be 2013. Whaaat..
Blame the eight to five (thirty) routine. It's killing my creativity, if there's any.
I turned twenty five on the seventh day of the month. Yeayyy! Had a humble yet beautiful celebration. Thanks to my awesome darling, you are the best. Sincerely. Just. The. Sweetest. Guy. EVER!! So damn blessed to be your girlfriend. xoxoxo
Thanks to family as well. Another well-planned surprise. Merry and kanyang.
I am surrounded with so many beautiful people. Thanks dear friends for all the well-wishes as well. If it wasn't for facebook, I doubt most of them remembered my birthday. Hihi..thanks anyway.
I am too lazy to list down 25 blessings for this year. But I will summarize it nonetheless.
Nothing major happened. Attended a course for the unemployed graduates for a few months and met some crazeh buddies. Placed at this company for the industrial attachment, and now I am employed here.
In between, I spend glorious moments with f & f doing things that I enjoyed so much.
Like, island getaway.
Manukan on 31st August.
Labuan on 14-16September.
Touring Shenzhen--Guangzhou
Just one pic is enough.
Significant weddings of my lovelies.
Vyan's
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| Oyo's |
E.lie's
Kristi's
Ken's
(Almost all pictures uploaded in this post are stolen >.<)
I am glad that this Christmas, I am employed. Not exactly the career path I had in mind, but whatever, still have paychecks. As long as I can pay my bills, I'll be good, for now. But as for the future plans, I need another career. >.<
December heat is burning me. 2012 had been really good to me. In few days it will be 2013. Whaaat..
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