Quickie

Been darn busy all week, and really stressed out.
However, the Saturday is here and I just can't stop smiling.

Looking forward for a beautiful Sabbath. (^.^)

Rainbow of Promise

Yea, lame title again. (^.^)

I am in awe of the Lord's mighty promises.

I am currently experiencing undergrad chaos ; a period of time where all things seems to be going wrong. Seriously, I felt I have done nothing right lately these days. I call this state undergrad chaos because indeed it is chaotic and I believe every undergrad or student can relate to my feelings. I refuse to elaborate more on those chaos, since I am trying hard not to complain and spread the negative vibe.

This morning, I woke up and read my devotional. The story of Nathaniel Hawthorne who didn't give up on his failure and later on succeeded. Long story made short though.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

This is the promise of the LORD Almighty to the exiles from Jerusalem to Babylon, back in those days. Yet, the promises still applies this very day! People may have different understanding on this text, each may be influenced by the current happenings around them. I have my own view, as a struggling undergraduate. And it is the promise of the LORD, giving me hope in any kind of academic circumstances, be it good, be it bad.

I am glad I know such Lord.

Timeless Quote

Confident of Being Protected

A message with that title was sent to my inbox today.

Life is not always about sweets and candies. And cupcakes. And honey. And sugar.
Today was one of those unsweetened days.

Everything is off track and cracking me.
I am seriously about to explode.
MidTerms, lab test, due dates and project thing all squeezed up in one short period of time is not a pretty feeling. Add up monthly hormone rage and voila, super fugly combo!

But reading that message in my inbox changes the way I interpret all the unlikable happenings.
Despite everything, I have the strongest assurance in HIM. In HIM alone I can have comfort.

I am confident that I am being protected all the time. Even though my humanly eyes often sees the opposite.

My New Toy

*Over-stressed pinky*

Met Uncle No 4 at Grand Ballroom 1B during our Sabbath worship and he told me : Haro moti flute tahakon diya dih *Uncle No 1's name*.

Me : Topot boh?Yuhuuuu..

And later that evening, I got myself hand-me-down Elkhart Indiana Flute. I think I am the third owner of the flute. Uncle No 4 to Uncle No 1 to Niece No 2.

24 hours later, I succeeded playing C-Major Scale and Seek Ye First chorus. Not bad for a beginner. (Puji diri sendiri)

Huh. And I'm sure my uncles are expecting to see loads of progress soon. That means, I have to squeeze some time for flute blowing in between my dissertation+mid-term revisions+lab test revision+dozens of assignments+munching Snickers+virtual farming.

And seriously, I am starting from zero. I rely solely on online tutorials. But I am excited! It's never too late to learn something new (and something I always wanted to do!). I quit formal piano lesson when I was younger, but thankfully, I still can play kampung-kampung la.(^.^) Now, I want to start again! With flute.

My aspiration for flute is to play Via Dolorosa duet with guitar. Simplistic and realistic.

Aspiring to play the flute scene from Jay Chou's movie : Secret (still struggling finding the title!) would be too much eh? Okay, I get it. One step at a time Cha..one baby step at a time. I have yet to learn the proper breathing and blowing technique. Uh. I can't help myself from being too ambitious.

Oii..I'm having midterm exam tomorrow morning. Stop typing. Now.

Heavenly Snack on Earth

Bila saya bored, saya makan Snickers.
Bila saya busy, saya makan Snickers.

Bila saya lapar, saya makan Snickers.
Bila saya kenyang, saya makan Snickers.

Bila saya baru bangun, saya makan Snickers.
Bila saya mau tidur, saya makan Snickers.

Bila saya gembira, saya makan Snickers.
Bila saya tension, saya makan Snickers.

Bila saya cemas, saya makan Snickers.
Bila saya tenang, saya makan Snickers.

Bila baru mau mula buat assignment, saya makan Snickers.
Bila mau rehat sekejap, saya makan Snickers.
Bila sudah siap buat, saya makan Snickers.

Dimana-mana, bila-bila dan apa-apa kejadian, SAYA MAKAN SNICKERS!

Fakta Ringkas
^^Susah mau cari benda ni, ada di Tong Hing (dan supermarket terpilih) tapi sangat mahal. Terpaksa order dari cos-mate yang orang Labuan. (-.-")
^^Snek kegemaran semenjak berumur 5 tahun, uncle No 1 selalu kasi beli untuk kami adik-beradik. Suka nampak karamelnya yang macam elastik.
^^Breakfast saya (plus Anlene) setiap pagi semasa Tahun 2, Sem 1 dan PNGS saya pada sem itulah yang paling tinggi dibandingkan sem-sem lain. (Teda kaitan..saja-saja mo include)
^^Ingatkan kena ban time krisis melamine+China, nasib baik ada di pasaran juga sekarang. Demand and Supply! (or is it Supply and Demand?)
^^Dapat dijumpai dalam beg saya kemana-mana saya pergi..kuliah, church, mindahu, membeli-belah, etc.
^^Disimpan di tempat paling tersembunyi untuk mengelakkan adik saya curi-curi makan. Sekejap ja abis ni nanti.
^^Saya tidak kisah kandungan gula nya. Yang penting bahagia semasa mengunyah lapisan coklat, karamel dan kekacangnya.

^^Makanan PALING DISUKAI..sama ranking dengan Mi Sup KB.

God Bless the Snickers manufacturers..lol

Stuck

Doing MATLAB is torturing when nobody is helping you.

It will be as blank as the image shown above. I don't even know where to start.

Doing Artificial Neural Network, with (again) NOBODY helping is another torture.

How should my poor brain process all those networks above? I can't even do single linear network, and I am expected to do multiple layers? I'm dead.

Even deadlier when I have to run Artificial Neural Network using MATLAB, with again, NO ONE I can ask for help.

There's no references from previous dissertation, Madam N said I am the first ME undergrad to do ANN. (Should I be happy or what?). I am expected to explore the wonders of ANN by myself! I don't know how the output is going to look like..round?square?spherical?rhombus?.. I HAVE NO IDEA..not even the slightest visualization!

Inhale.

Father in heaven, I am sure Thee has so much to teach me through this dissertation. I have to learn being in the pioneer situation, with no road ventured. I have to mark my own trail.
It is hard for a human to say this, but I am thankful for this challenge. I know I will emerge as a more equipped person after I succeed doing this. I believe in Your mighty plans, as there's no trials beyond what I can bear. You'll provide a way out so that I can stand up under it.
After all, I can DO ALL THINGS through Christ! Father, I pray for Your angels and Holy Spirit to be with me as I resume my works. Grant me peace of mind. In Christ blessed name, I pray. Amen.

Exhale. And I am feeling much better. Optimism and short talk with the Authorities up there always works for me.